Just ordered My Retro 1’s & 12’s yesterday. #LehGetItShawty
He says that I’m beautiful
But it’s deeper than brothers
Honkin horns
blowin kisses
Buyin drinks
He says my beauty can be seen even better with his eyes closed
And
Every now and then
he swears he can touch my beauty but he says
He’s not worthy and he’s glad I can’t see that
He says he…
“2 Seconds” …. written by Jhene Aiko ; produced by Kevin Roosevelt ….
May 8th, 2012 at 123pm
What I see in You. I see a remarkable woman with a kind & caring heart who is Beautiful in every sense of the word. When I look at you, I see a smile that lights up the room and that is truly contagious. I see strength & wisdom beyond anything I have ever known. I see Love, pure & true compassion & thoughtfulness. I see a Woman who walks through this world with gentleness & grace. I admire you for all that you are & for all that you do. You’re everything wonderful in this world, & if I had just one wish it would be that you could see what I see when I look at you.
I must admit I was kinda depress for the past couple of days. On the brighter side I’m glad I went out last night, it was much needed. I had so much fun, for a moment I felt like I was in Vegas, lol. My circle is the reason I smile, its never a dull moment. I can honestly say I’m truly blessed to especially have my girls apart of my life because I don’t how my life would be without them.
I was pissed, more hurt if anything & I still am ‘til this day. I’ve prayed. I’ve cried. Just the mere mention of this guy makes me so mad, in rage & hateful. Maybe if I can forgive me a little bit more, because I still haven’t forgiven myself for what I did. I still haven’t forgiven myself for this being the 1st time, a hardcore time that I let someone get in my head and letting them stay there. I let them completely take up residence in the mind of Zina & I did something I really didn’t want to do but I did it for the sake of what could of been or what I though could of been, when all along had I been thinking this would have never happened. I feel bad because I let someone get in my head & tell me what to do. I put myself in a position where I didn’t stand up for myself. I didn’t stand up for anything I believed in. How do you get over it, to move on? I would love to forgive myself but I just don’t know how too. I just want to be able to remove the hate that I feel. I wanna be able to remove the hate so I don’t have to cry every single time I think about this situation. I wanna be able to remove the hate from my heart. I would love to forgive myself, but I just don’t know how too.
- Monica